Saturday, June 22, 2013
Recently Cornetto has been producing a series of 'cupidity' short romance stories. I've watched a few and this is my favourite short story:
I really love the song in this video. The first two lines struck me the first time I heard it:
"You light up the room, and you don't even know."
Nice right? Many of us may seem to be insignificant individuals unlike celebrities, but who knows our presence might be significant to certain people or a certain person? Indeed, "you light up the room but you won't even know".
Haha love this heartwarming song a lot. :)
8:57 PM
Till we meet again..
Monday, June 17, 2013
You're a two-faced man. You can be very nice, yet you can be very indifferent. What's the real you? I believed you were not a nice person. Did I come to that conclusion because I was blinded by my
wounds, or that's the real you?
I've always been a person with bad judgement and I hate that. I've just heard stuff about the nice side of you and it seemed like I had mistaken you. I'm really confused. I don't know who you are anymore. I hope I'll get to know you better so I can judge you better. I'm sorry if I have really misunderstood you all the while. I hope you are well.
9:11 AM
Till we meet again..
Sunday, June 09, 2013
Today I have come to a realization: for all 21 years of my life, I have been a coward.
I can't trust people easily because I'm afraid of getting hurt. Thus, I always build a barrier between myself and other people. I'm afraid of getting close to people, I'm afraid that they might misuse my trust, I don't know why. Eventually, befriending me can be tiring because communications are always hindered by the
wall in between. Sometimes I wanna step out, but my fear keeps pulling me back.
I don't dare to venture into new things because I don't know what to expect of ahead of me. Whenever a new challenge approaches, people would normally go, "Let's try and take things as they come!" On the contrary, my response would be, "Let's not try cos we have never done this before. We gotta play safe!"
I'm afraid of making mistakes because I have no confidence in handling the implications. And because I don't wanna make mistakes, I can't learn from my mistakes and the more I'm unable to handle the implications.
What have I been fearing of all my life? Getting hurt? I don't understand why I've been overprotective of myself. Even a kid has to
fall to learn how to
walk, why am I expecting myself to
walk without
falling? Furthermore, being such a coward is making me escape from reality. Just because I wanna stay safe, I turn myself away from all the
perils.
I can't lead such a life anymore. Even if it's hard to leave the comfort zone I've been staying for the past 2 decades, I'm gonna try to embrace challenges. I must face the music and I need to shatter the barrier around me. I will progress from my little spot to greater heights.
1:21 AM
Till we meet again..
Sunday, June 02, 2013
Something bad happened to me. But I think I'm lucky more than unlucky. :)
I made a day trip to London today and my wallet was stolen during my trip. Although I'm quite annoyed that I have to go through the hassle to cancel my credit cards, file a police report, replace my cards, yada yada..., I think the thief was more unlucky. I had my phone, my train ticket, my student card, my oyster card and cash with me. The thief only gained my credit cards (which I have cancelled all of them), my Singapore identity card and a pocketful of pences (lol!). [The thief must be wondering why a Harrods shopper only carries a few pences LOL] My only worry is that my identity card might be used for illegal transactions. Hopefully the police reports made would save me from such circumstances!
At the same time, I feel really bad to have worried my parents all the way in Singapore. It must have worried them a lot since they are usually paranoid. My carelessness has troubled them to help me contact the Singapore banks and travel all the way to the police station to file a report, in the middle of the night. Even after all necessary procedures were done, they still helped me find the bank hotlines for me to replace my cards.
Lucky qiquan was with me when the incident happened. It would have been tough for me to handle all these by myself, considering I was in a town away from home (in UK) and in a foreign country. What's more, my phone couldn't make those calls out to the banks and the police, so I had to use his phone to make all those long and charged phone calls. =.= It was really funny how I had to turn the volume up cos the streets were noisy. Back at his place (where there was no more noise), I had difficulty understanding the police officer's accent. It was really funny how he could hear and decipher her questions although I was the one holding on to the phone (still with max volume) lol!
Despite the misfortune, the trip was redeemed by good company during dinner time! It's really nice to meet a friend from home, whom I haven't seen for a long time!
To be honest, I was a little upset when I first found out about the theft, so I texted a few friends back in Guildford about it. They were really concerned about my well-being. They attempted to help me and even asked if I was ok. My dear flatmates came out of their rooms to check on me once they heard me unlocking my door.
Rather than seeing it as a misfortune, I feel that I'm really lucky to be loved. I'm really sorry to have caused a commotion that worried all who are concerned about me. At the same time, I'm extremely grateful for all the love and kindness. :')
7:58 AM
Till we meet again..
